Monday, 2 May 2016

The Race Space

So, I haven't written much original material for this blog. I apologize. It's been a bit of a hectic time for my Master's degree (or as I like to spell it, Maester's degree) and I don't really have much time now but I think that's a price I'm willing to pay. I'd like to write about something that I haven't discussed much with anyone over the last nine years, but I feel like it's something that is constantly weighing on my mind.
I am ethnic.
This is not that unusual. As far as I understand it, we all have ethnicities. I recently read this collection of essays called 'Half-Half' that I started eleven years ago and only just finished. 'Half-Half' is an anthology of authors writing about being biracial or bicultural. I've never been that interested in race, ethnicity, or heritage because to me, heritage is simply a geographical horoscope. Rather than by simply being born at a certain point in time, you happen to be born at a certain point in space- and for some reason, we like to think that this can define us. I know there are huge cultural and ethnographical arguments about why being born in one culture can greatly influence who you turn out to be (I, for instance, didn't have an arranged marriage or get into soccer at any point) but I feel like in a globalized society, we begin to assert so much precociousness into what is really not that big a deal. Should we be proudly tolerating cries of “I'm half-Irish, and a quarter-Jewish, and an eighth-Indian...” when you know that this person is probably soporifically horrifically boring?
I don't think so.
If you live in a reasonably first-world comfortable society, there are an infinite plurality of influences exerted daily, hourly, minutely, into your consciousness. Not just different races, but cultures, subcultures, even random acts of geography which are shaping the fluid sense of self that we have. How could you say that your ancestors had any real impact on you compared to the greatest friend you ever had? Not a huge Walt Whitman fan but he did write those famous words “I am large, I contain multitudes”.
Some people would accuse me of acculturation at this point, and I would reply with the fact that this accusation isn't totally baseless. I have no love for the idea of preserving cultures for the sake of posterity. There are plenty of cultures that we modern apes never documented and they have been wiped from the Universe's sweet face of existence. Was there really such a tragedy? “Those who forget their history are doomed to repeat it” some jerks inevitably say. It's a good thing we do teach history in schools, as we have gotten rid of racism, sexism, war, terrorism, corruption, and religious dogma. Thanks History.
Without pussyfooting, I know I sound like a sourpuss. I am not Anthropologist, merely a Media Scholar, but I would like to bring up two concepts here- Eurocentricism, and invisibility. Eurocentricism is the idea that those with European features fare better in a society that was colonized by white people. To refuse this notion is to ignore a subtle, but everpresent problem. I bear no ill will towards white people, but I have to say, in proportion, white people make up 90% of those who ask “where are you from?” An Australian comedian (I'm sorry I don't remember your name and I'm not going to be able to find you on the internet, but I remember you were on Rove and you won some Snickers Comedy festival) phrased it perfectly- the question “where are you from?” is really “why aren't you white?!”
Look, none of us chose to be non-white. Trust me, if I could I would. Being ethnic offers me no real competitive advantages in a Western society. “Passing” is something I do very well, and many white people have said “oh, you could be a white person!” as if to say “if I didn't know any better, I'd have said you were the normal colour a human should be”. It's not a compliment; it's just about the worst thing you don't realize you've said in a long time.
The other problem is the systemic nature of being disadvantaged as an ethnic minority, and I'm just going to leave two links on this at the end because I'm not super-interested in giving the math of this statement. Part of my problem with my ethnic identity is that I've always felt like I don't really have one. I wouldn't identify as anything, even now, not the place where my ancestors originated, nor the country I lived in for eighteen years, or the country I was born in. I am reluctantly content to just wave off the whole issue because it's confusing. Should it be confusing? I wish it weren't.
The other issue is invisibility- this idea that race is invisible to most “colour-blind” people. These people are jerks. “Oh, but that doesn't happen anymore” they might say, “I would never discriminate against anybody”. I don't think most people would consciously choose to discriminate in most social or professional situations, but you often don't know you're doing it. Metacognition, the ability to analyze your own thinking, can be difficult. To ignore the tumultuous landscape is to try to go skiing in the jungle. Sure, you can do it, but you've made an alarming error assessing the situation. Where would you draw the boundaries about where race-blindness starts? Is it when you get past Northcote and over the bridge? Perhaps just a little passed Epsom Avenue? Or is an epoch? Once we, in what would become the first-world, all abolished slavery, we fixed the problem of race. Was it the 9th of April, 1847 that we solved the issue of race, or was it the 15th? Perhaps it was when affirmative action was called 'affirmative action'. It's an epic army of cats, quick-footed and sneaky, pervasive and often unintentional, directionless and comforting, but unless we want to be overrun, we need to start thinking more broadly about what to do about this.
One quick note about the corrective measures we might take, and my overwhelming advice on this to white people is very similar advice I give to struggling husbands- give support, but don't try to take control of the situation. Hello white people, we appreciate all that you've done for us, but it's not your fight- we'll let you know when we need help. It'd be very similar to me arguing for Trans equality, advocating for the rights of Trans people to marry, use public bathrooms, et cetera. I seriously do believe in Trans equality, but at the same time- I'm not personally affected by the outcome of this struggle. When you're the figurehead of a fight which has stakes that aren't yours, you're not being a good Samaritan- you're co-opting someone else's life as your activity. Support the stance, don't try to steer it.
This is a blog about me though, and I just wanted to write about my own experiences recently about this. I've had the horrible feeling that I have been seduced by this race problem that throws me under the bus, in that I don't really have many friends the same ethnicity as me- and part of that has been by design. The people I congregate with have all homogenized in a certain way that I found attractive, and they didn't just happen to be white. I rarely make the effort to join Kiwi Asian clubs or date ethnic minorities, and this might seem strange- but it should be an effort. Though it's still a problem, it was an effort to get the majority of husbands to stop viewing their wives as property. Like that, we've come a long way with regards to race- but there's a reason why I likened an army of cats to racism- they're everywhere, and you often don't notice they're living with you until it's too late.


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